Sunday, November 8, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Lalala
I've observed a funny habit among my college friends. We like to dare each else to do something but we would never go through with it.
"Hey, eat this veggie for 10 bucks?" (one of friends hates vegetables lol)
"5 bucks for you to eat this tomato!" (I hate tomatoes)
"I dare you to say 'You're really pretty' to that waitress!"
.... And so on.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Whoops
Today I accomplished no studying. Apparently there really is no hope for me to study at home. Nothing gets done. I procrastinated the whole day through. Here's hoping I can wake up early tomorrow.
To fill in my post quota. The highlights of today was re-reading old favourite fics and discovering new ones that made my tear ducts leak. What good writing does to you..
To fill in my post quota. The highlights of today was re-reading old favourite fics and discovering new ones that made my tear ducts leak. What good writing does to you..
Thursday, November 5, 2009
I was lazy today
I had my dream a bit.. ready. But never got around to finishing it.
So because I'm in NaBloPoMo.. I'll post something random to fulfil my quota.
Today's entry will be about facebook.
It's seriously annoying me.. when I'm playing a game, and a person messages me on fb chat. And then the active cursor is no longer in the main window but changes to the chat window. Making me unable to continue with my game, then causing me to lose it. And not to mention how the fb chat windows do weird stuff sometimes, and makes it hard to place the cursor back into it.
Gah.
'
So because I'm in NaBloPoMo.. I'll post something random to fulfil my quota.
Today's entry will be about facebook.
It's seriously annoying me.. when I'm playing a game, and a person messages me on fb chat. And then the active cursor is no longer in the main window but changes to the chat window. Making me unable to continue with my game, then causing me to lose it. And not to mention how the fb chat windows do weird stuff sometimes, and makes it hard to place the cursor back into it.
Gah.
'
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Full Of Fail
Didn't manage to finish my 2nd short challenge which was to finish my sample database exam. Could only go through half of it. After that, I could not for my life concentrate on it anymore. Duh. Oh well.
Second fail is.. well, I read something that really irritated me today. I read a note on Facebook, which was a copy paste from a forwarded e-mail. Basically, it writes down how this one woman was a director of a multinational company. She said that she neglected her family and her children paid more attention and cared more about their maid than they did to her, and that she failed the signs that lead her daughter to drugs and death due to overdose.
So in conclusion.. she said she has failed her responsibility as a wife and as a mother and warns us to prioritize according to what really is the most important.
Don't get me wrong, I did think she chose the overall course of action. Neglecting your children and not noticing something's wrong with them equals to bad parenting. However, what bothered me was how the conclusion and the comment seemed to put the onus on the woman. Which is: it is the wife's responsibility to ensure family life is OK and to look after the children. And don't get me started on comments that leaned towards "woman should know that their nature is in being a good wife and a good mother".
It's just that.. looking over your family is the responsibility of both of the parents, y'know? It's not just the woman who has to be the proper 'wife' and the proper 'mother'. It's also the guy who has to be the proper 'husband' and the proper 'father' as well. And I'm not just talking about bringing in the money to feed them. But also in times having to cook or wash the dishes or take care of households, and know what his kids are up to, when are their dentist appointments, and so on.
Therefore it irritates me that it seems like everything associated to children and family and the house is the wife's sole responsibility. And that it's a bad thing if a woman wants a career and not a life solely centered around her family.
The content in the e-mail? The woman was at fault, no doubt about it. But the conclusion should not be "women should prioriotize their family more than their work" but "people should prioritize their family more than their work".
Second fail is.. well, I read something that really irritated me today. I read a note on Facebook, which was a copy paste from a forwarded e-mail. Basically, it writes down how this one woman was a director of a multinational company. She said that she neglected her family and her children paid more attention and cared more about their maid than they did to her, and that she failed the signs that lead her daughter to drugs and death due to overdose.
So in conclusion.. she said she has failed her responsibility as a wife and as a mother and warns us to prioritize according to what really is the most important.
Don't get me wrong, I did think she chose the overall course of action. Neglecting your children and not noticing something's wrong with them equals to bad parenting. However, what bothered me was how the conclusion and the comment seemed to put the onus on the woman. Which is: it is the wife's responsibility to ensure family life is OK and to look after the children. And don't get me started on comments that leaned towards "woman should know that their nature is in being a good wife and a good mother".
It's just that.. looking over your family is the responsibility of both of the parents, y'know? It's not just the woman who has to be the proper 'wife' and the proper 'mother'. It's also the guy who has to be the proper 'husband' and the proper 'father' as well. And I'm not just talking about bringing in the money to feed them. But also in times having to cook or wash the dishes or take care of households, and know what his kids are up to, when are their dentist appointments, and so on.
Therefore it irritates me that it seems like everything associated to children and family and the house is the wife's sole responsibility. And that it's a bad thing if a woman wants a career and not a life solely centered around her family.
The content in the e-mail? The woman was at fault, no doubt about it. But the conclusion should not be "women should prioriotize their family more than their work" but "people should prioritize their family more than their work".
Some moar studying
So I got the first challenge out of the way!
Done! I read over all the lecture notes.. now that I know which is where, I can go on to the next step: memorizing the content.
However, that wouldn't be my challenge for today.. the challenge today is:
2nd short challenge
Finish sample exam of my database unit
Reward: Help in memorizing the sql syntax.
Ok, so that's that.. my stomache is full, all that's left to do is to wait for my hair to dry, then I can head to campus to start doing that sample exam.
First short term challenge: Finish my 12-week C# material (at least read over all the lecture notes) in one day, which will be tomorrow.
Reward: A sense of satisfaction and a step forward from leaving behind my procrastinating self.
Done! I read over all the lecture notes.. now that I know which is where, I can go on to the next step: memorizing the content.
However, that wouldn't be my challenge for today.. the challenge today is:
2nd short challenge
Finish sample exam of my database unit
Reward: Help in memorizing the sql syntax.
Ok, so that's that.. my stomache is full, all that's left to do is to wait for my hair to dry, then I can head to campus to start doing that sample exam.
Dream Blog #3
So again it was a hard time for me to immediately get up after I actually woken up.. But unlike yesterday I think I remember my dream a bit better than previously. Again, my dreams had different sections to it (none which had anything to do with each other whatsoever). I remember a lot of detail when I woke up, but unfortunately I had forgotten them already.. Anyway.
Dream #1:
One glance, I'm in a bus terminal. Second glance, I'm with my high school classmates. Did not occur to me whatsoever why I'm with my school friends. Oh well. Seems like we're all dressed up, though I'm not sure why. I notice motorcycles, and something like a laptop bag on a motorcycle. I'm compelled to take it, though I don't know why. I have a feeling it looks similar to mine. So I take it anyway, and look at the contents. Something in my mind connects it with the word 'baby'. Weird, but true. So I begin to look for my real laptop bag. Whoever took it must have mistaken it for their laptop.
I walk around, looking. Third glance, now I'm in my campus. I see the security office. Then walk around, again. Finally I found the guy who the bag I'm holding belongs to. He's a high school classmate who was in the martial arts extracurricular with me.
There were a lot more details, but unfortunately I don't remember.
Dream #2:
I'm with my university friends. For some reason, we're trying to avoid something.. or someone. I think we're trying to run away from someone's mother. Weird. We're trying to get to.. somewhere. Along the way, we took trams. Really fast trams that should not be going as fast as it is now. I remember the tram still going and me running to get on it, which is weird, because we're not supposed to do that. I remember running really really fast, and able to catch up with the tram. Then talking to my friends, yadda yadda. Again, the tram is really really fast. Almost like a train.
So I get to this.. airport. We're trying to go somewhere, and fast. My most reliable friend is running through the place like she knows it by heart. After all the running around, we finally know that we're not 'late'. We can catch the last plane.
As we're heading to the waiting room, I see a lot of snacks, bread, and doughnuts. I want to buy some, since I think there were 50 cents each (so cheap). But then my reliable friend said "really?" as in a "they look expensive really".. and as I look closer I thought to myself I may have misread the prices but then again I wasn't sure.
Anyway, we're heading to the waiting room. I'm not sure which plane we're on and where we're headed to, but there's one thought in my mind: 'United flight to the US'.
/end
Wow, that felt weird to write. Anyway, I think I'm noticing a pattern. I read somewhere that we tend to dream about the things we last thought about, but I didn't really think it applied to me. Now that I'm writing it all down.. First post, I was just reading the manga Wild Life, and had a dream about an elephant. Second post, I was in the midst of studying separately from my friends, and had a dream about my friends and studying and lecture notes. This post.. I had an offer to do a short project in America, and United.. well.. that's an American airlines.
Dream #1:
One glance, I'm in a bus terminal. Second glance, I'm with my high school classmates. Did not occur to me whatsoever why I'm with my school friends. Oh well. Seems like we're all dressed up, though I'm not sure why. I notice motorcycles, and something like a laptop bag on a motorcycle. I'm compelled to take it, though I don't know why. I have a feeling it looks similar to mine. So I take it anyway, and look at the contents. Something in my mind connects it with the word 'baby'. Weird, but true. So I begin to look for my real laptop bag. Whoever took it must have mistaken it for their laptop.
I walk around, looking. Third glance, now I'm in my campus. I see the security office. Then walk around, again. Finally I found the guy who the bag I'm holding belongs to. He's a high school classmate who was in the martial arts extracurricular with me.
There were a lot more details, but unfortunately I don't remember.
Dream #2:
I'm with my university friends. For some reason, we're trying to avoid something.. or someone. I think we're trying to run away from someone's mother. Weird. We're trying to get to.. somewhere. Along the way, we took trams. Really fast trams that should not be going as fast as it is now. I remember the tram still going and me running to get on it, which is weird, because we're not supposed to do that. I remember running really really fast, and able to catch up with the tram. Then talking to my friends, yadda yadda. Again, the tram is really really fast. Almost like a train.
So I get to this.. airport. We're trying to go somewhere, and fast. My most reliable friend is running through the place like she knows it by heart. After all the running around, we finally know that we're not 'late'. We can catch the last plane.
As we're heading to the waiting room, I see a lot of snacks, bread, and doughnuts. I want to buy some, since I think there were 50 cents each (so cheap). But then my reliable friend said "really?" as in a "they look expensive really".. and as I look closer I thought to myself I may have misread the prices but then again I wasn't sure.
Anyway, we're heading to the waiting room. I'm not sure which plane we're on and where we're headed to, but there's one thought in my mind: 'United flight to the US'.
/end
Wow, that felt weird to write. Anyway, I think I'm noticing a pattern. I read somewhere that we tend to dream about the things we last thought about, but I didn't really think it applied to me. Now that I'm writing it all down.. First post, I was just reading the manga Wild Life, and had a dream about an elephant. Second post, I was in the midst of studying separately from my friends, and had a dream about my friends and studying and lecture notes. This post.. I had an offer to do a short project in America, and United.. well.. that's an American airlines.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Dream Blog #2
I didn't quite.. immediately wake up as ideally I was supposed to, but what the heck. Reaching to your laptop after waking up while still in really sleepy mode is a hard thing to do.
And again, my dreams had different sections to it in which none had anything to do with each other whatsoever. I read somewhere that we were supposed to write them as if it was happening to us right now, so here we go.
The dream:
Right now I'm on the ferry. It's night time, but it's strangely warm and not cold. Probably has something to do with the fact that summer is approaching and we're leaving spring goodbye. I'm not sure what's going on, but apparently there is a formal dinner going on. I don't remember why I could able to get here in the first place though. These things aren't usually my type.
And now that I think about it, in front of me is the Sydney Opera House. Strangely enough, I don't stop to think why I'm in Sydney rather than at home, sleeping. Or studying. Whatever. So I walk around, and I notice my usual group of friends. I walk to the railing, and they are chatting with each other.
Somehow we end up in a table near the railing. I notice lecture notes and laptops. They are studying, and I am reminded how these past few days I've been excluding myself by studying along and not with them. It's nothing personal though, it's just that the place they've been studying lately has no computers - and I need a computer, so I can't really study with them.
/end dream.
Yeah, yet another boring random dream. I hope I at least get to dream about a fantasy world or something. I think that would be a bit more interesting to write about. Anyway. Later today, I will go to campus and study C#, and hopefully not be distracted. Hopefully. Fingers crossed.
And again, my dreams had different sections to it in which none had anything to do with each other whatsoever. I read somewhere that we were supposed to write them as if it was happening to us right now, so here we go.
The dream:
Right now I'm on the ferry. It's night time, but it's strangely warm and not cold. Probably has something to do with the fact that summer is approaching and we're leaving spring goodbye. I'm not sure what's going on, but apparently there is a formal dinner going on. I don't remember why I could able to get here in the first place though. These things aren't usually my type.
And now that I think about it, in front of me is the Sydney Opera House. Strangely enough, I don't stop to think why I'm in Sydney rather than at home, sleeping. Or studying. Whatever. So I walk around, and I notice my usual group of friends. I walk to the railing, and they are chatting with each other.
Somehow we end up in a table near the railing. I notice lecture notes and laptops. They are studying, and I am reminded how these past few days I've been excluding myself by studying along and not with them. It's nothing personal though, it's just that the place they've been studying lately has no computers - and I need a computer, so I can't really study with them.
/end dream.
Yeah, yet another boring random dream. I hope I at least get to dream about a fantasy world or something. I think that would be a bit more interesting to write about. Anyway. Later today, I will go to campus and study C#, and hopefully not be distracted. Hopefully. Fingers crossed.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Challenges
I just got home from a 1 PM to 11 PM studying marathon.. although suffice to say, only about 30% (maximum 40%) was dedicated to actually studying. The other 60% to 70% was dedicated to aimless browsing and a 2 hour chat with an 'acquaintance' (this sounds so distant, but I don't think we are close enough to be termed 'friends' either). It was a nice chat, and I remember when I saw this person chatting with my team mate, thinking to myself,'Wow, they seem awfully comfortable chatting to each other. Taking their long sweet time!'. I guess I understand why, now.
Anyway. I've been thinking to myself.. in order to spice up this blog (and my life, admittedly), I could challenge myself a bit. Get into those writing challenges, or drawing challenges, and hey, even programming challenges. I could learn Python programming in a fun way, or just do simple programming exercises such as this.
To be honest with myself, I'm in the state where I'm looking at my friends and colleagues and thinking,'Wow, they have a lot going for them', and thinking that I'm still being that boring old me doing.. nothing. I have my life planned out (or I hope so), but I still feel intimidated and feel that hopelessness and a bit of pressure on my back.
So, yeah. Challenges. The ultimate challenge being: lucid dreaming (Since I remember what jotting down dreams were supposed to help with).
Lucid dreaming:
Anyway. I've been thinking to myself.. in order to spice up this blog (and my life, admittedly), I could challenge myself a bit. Get into those writing challenges, or drawing challenges, and hey, even programming challenges. I could learn Python programming in a fun way, or just do simple programming exercises such as this.
To be honest with myself, I'm in the state where I'm looking at my friends and colleagues and thinking,'Wow, they have a lot going for them', and thinking that I'm still being that boring old me doing.. nothing. I have my life planned out (or I hope so), but I still feel intimidated and feel that hopelessness and a bit of pressure on my back.
So, yeah. Challenges. The ultimate challenge being: lucid dreaming (Since I remember what jotting down dreams were supposed to help with).
Lucid dreaming:
A lucid dream is a dream in which the sleeper is aware that he or she is dreaming. When the dreamer is lucid, he or she can actively participate in and often manipulate the imaginary experiences in the dream environment. Lucid dreams can seem extremely real and vivid depending on a person's level of self-awareness during the lucid dream.
Source: Wikipedia
Source: Wikipedia
Supposedly, one of the common techniques to be able to experience lucid dreaming is the ability to recall dreams. One of the ways to recall dreams, is to keep a dream journal, and write down the dream immediately when a person awakes. So for now, I will try to keep the habit of groggily waking up and trying to reach the power button on my laptop, and patiently wait for it to boot and connect to the internet.
I remember thinking it would be cool to be able to lucid dream. Which is why currently, that is the ultimate challenge.
However, baby steps and more baby steps. I'm in the midst of the exams approaching me so I do not want to dedicate my time purposely to other things than 'studying', but since I'm such a slacker, I suppose I could make my studying habits a bit more challenging.
First short term challenge: Finish my 12-week C# material (at least read over all the lecture notes) in one day, which will be tomorrow.
Reward: A sense of satisfaction and a step forward from leaving behind my procrastinating self.
Wish me luck, whoever is out there in the big world of the interwebz.
I remember thinking it would be cool to be able to lucid dream. Which is why currently, that is the ultimate challenge.
However, baby steps and more baby steps. I'm in the midst of the exams approaching me so I do not want to dedicate my time purposely to other things than 'studying', but since I'm such a slacker, I suppose I could make my studying habits a bit more challenging.
First short term challenge: Finish my 12-week C# material (at least read over all the lecture notes) in one day, which will be tomorrow.
Reward: A sense of satisfaction and a step forward from leaving behind my procrastinating self.
Wish me luck, whoever is out there in the big world of the interwebz.
Dream Blog #1
I read somewhere that noting down your dreams after you wake up could have.. some kind of useful effect, although I don't remember what exactly. I thought it would be kind of cool to start writing them (or typing them, lol) down, so here we go.
Last night I think I had multiple set of dreams, but I only remember two of them.
First part:
I dreamed about this blog. I remember I had more than one entry up, but the weird thing was: people were actually commenting! So there I was being really curious on why people would actually comment on some nobody's blog (I remember there being 9 comments), so when I clicked.. most of them were spam. And there was actually a 'No Spam' option for the comments section. lol.
But then I dreamed that there were 2 to 3 people who would regularly comment. I recognized their names, both of them are my friends on Facebook.
Second part:
I dreamed that I was in a supermarket (Coles, to be exact). And I encountered a sick elephant. I'm not sure what happens next, but I think I remember calling a vet (or was I the vet?) to cure said elephant.
Yeah, go figure. I think I dreamed this because I read a whole 36 chapters of the Wild Life manga.
Last night I think I had multiple set of dreams, but I only remember two of them.
First part:
I dreamed about this blog. I remember I had more than one entry up, but the weird thing was: people were actually commenting! So there I was being really curious on why people would actually comment on some nobody's blog (I remember there being 9 comments), so when I clicked.. most of them were spam. And there was actually a 'No Spam' option for the comments section. lol.
But then I dreamed that there were 2 to 3 people who would regularly comment. I recognized their names, both of them are my friends on Facebook.
Second part:
I dreamed that I was in a supermarket (Coles, to be exact). And I encountered a sick elephant. I'm not sure what happens next, but I think I remember calling a vet (or was I the vet?) to cure said elephant.
Yeah, go figure. I think I dreamed this because I read a whole 36 chapters of the Wild Life manga.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
1st Post
From time to time again, I've vowed to myself to actually start doing something in a routine. .. Something that is useful, note that. I've been blogging this past 8 months every week for university responsibility purposes, and since that has ended.. I figured it would be a cool thing to have some place where I can easily read my thoughts at this exact day at that exact time and have a good laugh.
Oh, and what with the self reflecting and learning purposes and improving writing skills and all. I had blogged a hell of a lot before, however those were from the times where I thought I was the coolest shit ever (oh tween years), and I couldn't read them without having my face burst into flames from embarrassment. So yeah, those entries from way back when have been deleted from the face of the internet.
I've failed multiple times in the past where I wanted to re-start this blog hobby of mine. I figured it was because I would have a lot of thoughts organized but when the time to actually write it came, I got too lazy. So now, I think I will lessen my own expectation and include anything and everything at anytime I feel like it regardless of the completeness of content.
Anyway. Baby steps. Starting with a post with no point, really. Ta dah.
Oh, and what with the self reflecting and learning purposes and improving writing skills and all. I had blogged a hell of a lot before, however those were from the times where I thought I was the coolest shit ever (oh tween years), and I couldn't read them without having my face burst into flames from embarrassment. So yeah, those entries from way back when have been deleted from the face of the internet.
I've failed multiple times in the past where I wanted to re-start this blog hobby of mine. I figured it was because I would have a lot of thoughts organized but when the time to actually write it came, I got too lazy. So now, I think I will lessen my own expectation and include anything and everything at anytime I feel like it regardless of the completeness of content.
Anyway. Baby steps. Starting with a post with no point, really. Ta dah.
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